How hurt, healing and a hospital piano shaped Emma Louise's best album

Singer-songwriter Emma Louise's first solo album in almost a decade reckons with suffering and salvation. (Supplied: Sam Kristofski) Link copiedShareShare articleEmma Louise has been writing music since she was 12 but sharing it with the world hasn't always been easy. "I've always found the releasing of albums really stressful," she admits to Zan Rowe for Take 5. "But it's different now because I'm happy with who I am." That's something of an understatement regarding her fifth album, Sunshine For Happiness, a record born from a harrowing period of upheaval but signifying a profound artistic rebirth. It features the most deeply personal, emotionally revealing songs of Louise's career, processing a period in which she got married, became a mother, got divorced and underwent an intense mental health recovery. The Australian singer-songwriter selects 'Before and After' tunes to align with her cathartic new labum. Songs like Beggar and Medicine examine an unhealthy romantic desperation but delivered in gorgeously intimate vocal performances and understated arrangements — all swooning organ, muted rhythm section and swelling strings. Dust is a folksy rumination on mortality; The Absence of You laments feeling abandoned by the spirit of creativity amid fragile vibraphone and ghostly harmonies. Growing up in Far North Queensland, Louise achieved success early on. She was 19 when she uploaded synthpop single Jungle to triple j Unearthed. It won the 2011 Song of the Year at the Queensland Music Awards and became a breakout hit at home and abroad, charting across Europe thanks to a remix by Berlin DJ Wankelmut. "My head is a jungle," went the song's hooky chorus. Fifteen years later, it feels like Louise has finally cut a path through the wilderness. "Most people would laugh, but I didn't laugh, I was like woah. It affected me so much." Sunshine For Happiness follows Dumb, last year's collaborative album with super-producer (and Future Classic labelmate) Flume, on which Louise explored her autism and ADHD diagnoses over warped electronics. However, Louise's last solo album was 2018's Lilac Everything, where she boldly pitched her vocals to a lower, unrecognisable register. The record was produced in Seattle with Louise's then-husband, Canadian artist Tobias Jesso Jr. "I never wanted to be a producer 'til I heard Emma's demos," the Grammy Award-winning songwriter to the likes of Olivia Rodrigo, Adele, Dua Lipa and Harry Styles said at the time. But the stylistic decision to alter her voice masked Louise's deeper anxieties. Living in Los Angeles, she became increasingly isolated and burnt out, measuring herself by other's milestones and developing a harmful dependency on songwriting as the measure of self-worth. "I feel I had this beast in me, and I don't know where it came from, that basically whenever I wasn't writing music or when I didn't have something to show, I would just start burning up," she explains. "I'd lock myself away, for weeks, trying to write. But I was suffering so much. "It would get to this point where I wanted to not be here anymore … It was like, if I couldn't do that, then what was the point of being alive?" After experiencing a "complete mental breakdown", Louise checked herself into a hospital, undergoing treatment and slowly re-evaluating her art and life. In the hospital's lobby was a grand piano, where Louise sat one day and wrote a "prayer out to the universe". The result became All Beautiful Things, a tear-jerking ballad yearning for divinity and redemption. "I just wanted to live and breathe in all of the beautiful things in life, to conquer my fear so I could have more of the love. "Wishing for the end of suffering, the kind of suffering that led me to this massive shift I had. And I realised if I could do that, then living would be beautiful." More songs soon came, including Medicine, rendering the epiphany that true healing doesn't come from anyone or anywhere else but within. When Louise eventually checked out, "everything was different … It was the best thing that's ever happened to me. And then also my creativity just exploded". She started painting, sculpture, pottery, and more music came pouring out. Capitalising on the inspiration, she decamped to Seattle's idyllic Bear Creek studios in 2019, spending two weeks recording with a small band, with Jesso Jr producing alongside fellow Grammy winner Shawn Everett. "Making this record in a vortex away from the world, magic happened and it was so good." "To alchemise the world, how it hurts and affects me, and bring it into creation — that's redemption." (Supplied: Sam Kristofski) Half of Sunshine For Happiness features music written before or around Louise's treatment, full of "suffering and pain", the rest is "the other side", defined by light, reconnection and recovery. That context weighs upon the album's heavier themes. Trigger of a Gun is a grieving response to a 2018 shooting in an LA nightclub,

How hurt, healing and a hospital piano shaped Emma Louise's best album

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