I don't have questions: how a good Jewish boy turns atheist

I know I'm preaching to the choir here, but I saw a blogpost which annoyed me, and Less Wrong is where I blog stuff (see my profile for my actual username).As one of the disproportionately many Less Wrong users who grew up in an orthodox Jewish household, I continue to follow some Chareidi bloggers. Daas Yochid is an interesting and thoughtful example, and the Chareidi world would be a far better place if there were more people like him.However a consistent theme across his writing is that whilst everyone has questions, religious people simply know God exists, so stay religious, whilst e.g autists or people with difficult family relationships don't develop that experiential connection to God, so as soon as they have any intellectual problems with religion, they leave orthodox Judaism (go OTD).I am friends with many OTDers. Most of them left for intellectual reasons; that is, they thought the truth claims of Judaism just did not add up. Yet, every single one of these friends, as far as I know, have one of these two things: They are either on the autistic spectrum somewhere, or alternatively, have severe issues with a father figure in their lives, often to the point of trauma.Yes, I too, kept believing, even though the questions bothered me, something my OTD friends could not do.Essentially, when one grows up in a culture where Hashem is real, one knows and experiences Hashem and KNOWS its true, even if he cannot explain it logically, just like someone knows the table is smooth and the passerby is his friend Moshe. This realness of Hashem, and this spirituality, is not an illusion, but is real to anyone who experienced it.I do believe there are very strong questions on Yiddishkeit. I have attempted to answer a lot of questions, but some still remain. Yet I am still frum because I know viscerally it is true, as R Danziger says. And we don’t die from a question.Well as a neurotypical guy from a warm household with a good relationship with my entire family. All I can say i